Before I even get into this blog/note, I will let whoever reads this know that I am strictly speaking my mind and not attacking any particular group of people. However, if you feel the need to delete me, etc. go ahead. No hard feelings.
As some of you know, I have made some radical adjustments to my life in the past three months. Before midway of April of last year I was heavily involved in ministry, as well as in school for it. One event took place and I got mad at God. I left the church and cut ties with almost everyone in it. I was given a great opportunity to be an intern with a record company. Not too long after taking it I found myself doing the things that had gotten me into trouble in the past. But, I had a divine encounter with God and realized that I should have never left what I was doing in ministry. I also realized that I couldn't blame an incident in which my heart was broken on God.
Now, I find myself with a newfound love for Jesus that has me burning for Him more than ever. I see myself truly changed, and now I realize the depth and legitimacy of the calling He has placed on my life. With the greatness of that feeling and how well things have improved, the devil is coming at me harder than ever. I have been verbally abused through Facebook and Twitter for the things I say regarding Christianity and how much I support ministries/ministers such as The Ramp, Damon Thompson, and Mattie Montgomery. All of those people have had a huge influence on my walk with Jesus. They speak the truth that isn't watered down like we see in most "large" ministries these days.
To my point. The people that have used their words in attempt to hurt me or change my thinking really have no clue about my past or what I believe. Those things may shock them if they would take the time to ask, instead of assuming and jumping to conclusions about me. Allow me to fill all of you in. Before giving my life to Jesus, I struggled with numerous things and was head to Hell in a handbasket. I had an addiction to pills, I was basically an alcoholic, I struggled with lust and pornography, I had no heart, and was so arrogant that I didn't care about anyone but myself.
Yes, I have been set free from those things and preach heavily against them.Yes, I support a minister who has been very vocal about his disagreement with homosexuality. But, by no means do I judge anyone by what they do or what they believe. I love each and every one of you regardless. I am not one of those people to shove my thoughts down your throat. The love of Jesus is all I want to portray. But, I am called to speak and teach you how to get it and live like it.
The things I post on Facebook and Twitter are the things I believe, think, and pray for. It's your choice whether you accept Him or not. He loves you, I love you. I don't judge you, but in the end He will. That's all I can say. I just hope those who think I'm some awful Christian will realize that I'm human, imperfect, and struggle with things just as everyone else. I have just found a love that surpasses every possible feeling we can imagine. I know as a Christian that I will be persecuted, and I'll live with it. I hope those of you who read this understand that I'm no different, no better, and not anymore worthy of His love.
Drake
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